Monday, June 30, 2008

Temporary Highs.

I don't know much these days. I've kind of given up on figuring out things. The hows and whys and even the what ifs. I've spent too many nights awake trying to make sense of a lot of things and I wake up the next morning only to repeat the day's cycle. It's pointless really.

I'm not depressed but I'm not exactly doing cartwheels neither. And people say I should 'talk' about it. Talk talk talk talk...i'm so malas to even hear myself talk, what more those around me. Plus, I've always been afraid of being judged especially by those closest to me. The only person I know I can turn to without fear of judgement is my sister (simply because she's bound to me by blood for life and obliged to be on my side no matter what a piece of shit i'm turning into, haha).

Maybe we should just package it in a pretty little box with a big red ribbon and call it a 'Quarter Life Crisis' - how original, I know. The only think I can count on right now are temporary highs. And that includes:

1. A drink and a laugh with good friends after work

2. Good food

3. A good movie

4. Sex (hey, wishful thinking ok)

5. Playing with my cats

6. Shopping

7. Getting enough sleep

...oh wow I can't even think of 10 Temporary Highs - any ideas? Life is as good as it gets right now. And I'm not complaining - after all, you get what you give, no? I leave you with a horny photo:


Friday, June 20, 2008

The Break Up

It was just one of those random nights where I had nothing better to do but channel surf. And this movie popped onto my screen. I'd seen this before but I figured I'd watch the first ten minutes and then go watch paint dry in my room or something. But I ended up watching the whole thing.

Just to recap, the movie stars Jennifer Aniston (she is in disgustingly great shape here, dammit) and Vince Vaughn. It starts off with them meeting, and the next 4 minutes are 'photo clips' of them throughout the course of the relationship and then, of course, the inevitable break-up.

I don't know why, but I was so mesmerised throughout the film. With every cliched accusation ("I ask you to do one thing and you can't even do that right!") and painful revelation ("I deserve so much better than this - than you"), I felt myself flung back to every bad relationship moment. And eventhough it's supposed to be a 'romantic comedy' (but really, where is the romance and comedy in a break-up?), I found myself choking up. It's like watching a horrible train wreck happening right before you and there is nothing you can about it.

And the most poignant moment is of course when Jennifer's character is sobbing alone in her bedroom after her final attempt to make peace proves futile and Vince walks in - and for the first time, he doesn't act or look like a first class jerk. He just stands there, broken to see HER broken. And for a split second, you let out a little gasp and think, "omg, finally they realise how much they love each other!" Jen then bawls her head off and says what she should have said an hour a half of the movie earlier to avoid all the drama: "I feel unappreciated. I just wanted you to say thank you for once." And Vince goes, "Why didn't you just say so?" And she says, "I have been but you never seemed to get it!" (I'm ad libbing here but you guys catch my drift...).

That's when it made me realise: There's a great lesson to be learned here, both men and women.

Ladies, sometimes our diplomacy gets the better of us, especially when it comes to men. So be blunt for once and just say what you want right there and then. They're not mind-readers and dropping all the hints in the world is like stripping for a blind man - a waste of time.

And guys, stop being a class-A jerk sometimes and show some appreciation for your lady. It takes a simple thank you, a hug or even better, a shopping spree (haha). But seriously, what matters more is sincerely having that sense of appreciation for someone you love. You can't fake that - so don't even try.

Why don't we all just say what we mean and mean what we say? Why do so many women sell themselves short? Why do guys only appreciate things once they've lost them? Why did this movie bug me so much that I'm compelled to blog about it?

Monday, June 16, 2008

Slowing down.

Phew. The Sabah Dragon Boat Race ended yesterday and until July...I am pretty much event-free! Right now, I'm waiting for my ride to the airport, off to Sandakan for a meeting and will be back tonight. The office is empty and i'm the only one on my floor right now - the after-effects for hardcore events. Everyone's just slowing down and taking time to do that breathing thing. Wish i could do the same but ah well, Sandakan beckons.

A day of doing nothing...Now doesn't that sound grand? I leave you with a photo of what I'd love to be doing now:

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Andi'mnevergonnatellyoueverythingigottatellyoubutiknowigottagiveitatry *gasp*

Forget Beyonce. Forget Maroon 5. Here is the concert that's got me whipping out my 'Greatest Karaoke Moments' dvd. Ladies and gents, yes indeed: AIR SUPPLY IS COMIN' TO TOWN!
When : 23rd June 2008, Monday - 8:00pm
Where: Magellan Grand Ballroom, KK
Why : Who's AIR SUPPLY!
Please don't ask me to explain my fascination with this age-defying duo and their ability to hit superhuman pitches without bursting at the seams. I mean, I don't know anyone else who can get away with lyrics that go "I can make every tackle at the sound of the whistle, I can make all the stadiums rock..." In a love song, no less. There's just something that makes you wanna sing along. Come on. I know you want to.
Get your tickets here. Will I be there?
Did you really need to ask?