Friday, September 02, 2011

Baby do. Baby don't.

So those of you who know my story are aware that the H and I are trying to have a baby. And those of you who know my story are also aware that we recently succeeded but unfortunately lost the pregnancy. Dr. C - a very kind, professional and caring doctor, I might add - advised that we wait a whole cycle before trying again. "This happens more often than you'd imagine and these patients of mine go on to have very successful pregnancies," he consoled me while I choked on my sobs in his clinic. He held my hand, handed me a tissue and told me he was sure he'd see me again in a few months. Bless him.

Almost a month has passed and we get by with our lives. I've mourned my loss but I need to look forward. And I must say, the past few weeks of taking it slow has been refreshing. Apart from a few unnecessary dramas, I'd say we're doing pretty okay. And now a cycle has passed and the H and I look at each other pensively as we decide the next step. Too soon? Later? Now? Physically, I feel much better although my hormones act like they've been on a five-day rave party and are now suffering a major hangover.

We want a baby. No questions about that. But the past month has been great without the calendar-marking, ovulation-testing, diet-watching and whatever else TTC entails (TTC = trying to conceive. I've been reading so many books and articles, you catch the baby-making lingo fast). But we don't want to waste much time neither. So baby do, baby don't? Who knows anymore. So at this point, we're just forging ahead, fingers crossed and minds open. It has been too stressful planning our life around a possible pregnancy (oh we can't travel in December cuz I might be pregnant, oh we can't spend money on that because there might be a baby coming soon...).

Right now, we're just grateful to have each other. A baby may or may not make its way into our lives but in the meantime, we will focus on the awesomeness of being together, uninterrupted.

If baby makes three, I'm sure we can handle that too.

11 comments:

Gallivanter said...

We're in the same boat, though not as trying as hard as we should be.

Fridaycat said...

Yang penting, jangan stress, so i've learned :P Good luck you two!

Jaclyn said...

Hi Mel, sorry about your loss... sending you much <3

Glad to hear you are doing alright and feeling grateful for the blessing of each other. Stay in touch :)

w@nder2nowhere said...

Good attitude Mel. I guess having baby is like falling in love, it comes when you least expect it. (As if I know a lot about either, hahaha..)

Fridaycat said...

heh thanks Edmund, and i'm pretty sure you're spot on!

Fridaycat said...

Thank you for the thought, Jac. And thanks for dropping by! :)

JerryInc said...

focus on making love not babies, it's less stressful and more fun! hahaha (mcm lah sa tau kunun haha)

~kar~ said...

Mel, we are trying for our second baby and it is quite trying (cos it's been too long), LOL. Anyways, there are just soooo many tips out there and yes, do not stress. I remembered my daughter was conceived whilst we were holiday-ing in Kundasang. And some of my friends even conceiving their first, second and third child overseas!

Yang penting, jangan kau stress ya

Fridaycat said...

Kar, so ada alasan la mau pi holiday ni? Better tell my husband! hahaha
Good luck on your 'project' :) and yes, am trying not to stress out too much...

oji said...

Bah, go for a holiday!

Aya said...

You can do it!!!! =D